I’m really beginning to ramp things up for the launch of the new project.  As a result, I have to become the Hard Ass Bitch (HAB).

First off, since I’m the Director of Operations (because that’s my strong suit), it’s MY responsibility to ensure that everything is getting done and that deadlines are being communicated and followed up on.

Some of the people in the project are great – they’re proactive, they’re enthusiastic, they’re raring to go.  Others are a bit more reactive and not as time-sensitive as I would like them to be.  But then, I’ve never communicated that fact to them, so it’s really my problem, not theirs.

But my stress levels are going to be quite high the next week and a half.  Lots to do and every bit of time needs to be utilized in finishing this part of the project.  It’s annoying that I’m the only one that seems to be concerned with the “now” and finishing this part of the project.  Sure, it’s nice to have the energy and ideas for the next part, but if this part doesn’t get finished, then you really can’t do the fun part.

Also, I’m not sure anyone but Tim knows the level of commitment and the huge list of responsibilities that I have in regards to this project.  The things that I’m expecting everyone else to do, I also have to do – but in addition, I have to be the CEO, CFO, COO and Supreme Dictator of All Things.  Well, maybe not the dictator part, but you get the picture.  I want more than anything to do the fun part too – but goddammit, the shit work has to be done FIRST!

Frustrating.  But again, it’s my own problem because I’ve not been the HAB and communicating that to anyone.

That is going to change.

I just sent out the “manifesto” of the new project to all involved and I’ve outlined all the deadlines that I expect them to follow.  And if I have to be a HAB to get some results that weren’t my doing, then so be it.

What everyone has to realize that anything I do with this project isn’t personal – it’s business.  We’ve set it up from the get-go as a business, and it’s going to be run like one.  If I have to be the HAB and make a tough decision that may not be liked, then I’ll have to make it if it’s for the good of the project.

So combined with my full-time job where it’s our busiest time of year, I’ve been becoming a little stress nugget.  Tim being in Boston all week hasn’t helped either.

But, the way I look at it, if we do a ton of hard work over a short period of time, then it’ll be smooth sailing from there.

Time’s a wastin’!